I didnt get hacked.
I recently played a lot of 7 wonders arch. Love the game. But I always come short of winning sometimes. Not only that but I lose to people that obviously are making wrong turns. Now someone will come and say that how can it be wrong if they won, but it is. And its as simple as getting a few science cards in the beginning or even getting the right resources at the end. So many times I have gotten people that draw from the random tokens and get the two 4/12 tokens that is just feels that the game is set up against me. And I do believe that it is. I am a premium user, but I didnt pay for it. I make no profit for this site and therefore have less value to someone who has bought premuim. Its not too hard to continuously change what card is underneath the one that was just taken and give an unfair advantage to people that pay. In any case I have no way to verify if the stack of cards ever gets "reshuffled" midgame. Something you can obviously controll when playing with a physical set. And while yes, one should learn to lose, in situations like these, you cant know if you lost because you got bested or because the dealer has a prefrence. And since one would rather not admit they got bested, there is only one option, which only makes you mad, because you feel held back.
On top of that there is the whole ELO and ranked system. Which in a game of chess for example makes a lot of sense, but here you have no control on what card will appear next. You can only know what probability each type of card has for a given deck and that is nowhere near enough of control. In any case luck is involved and I dont deny that. But once again was it luck that helped someone or was it BGA's preferences. Anyway ELO is hard to come by. The majority of players are lower ELO than you, so you must maintain a high WR to climb. What happens is that you climb to some point with x% WR , but now you are higher than your opponents, so with the same WR you start dropping, which feels even worse.
At this point the "humblest" of people come in and say "its just a game". Well if it is just a game, why do you play? Why do you bother winning? You "just lost" and losing is easier than winning so "just lose". I come here to feel good by playing something and winning feels good, so no, thank you, its not "just a game", its just 10 min of my life that I gambled to feel good and lost them. So why not queue up again, gamble another 10 mins and again and again. And I only get mad at the people I am playing agaisnt, beacuse in my eyes they dont deserve to win. I am not saying that I deserve to win every time, I also make mistakes, but sometimes it just grinds my gears how much "luck" someone has.
After playing here for a few years, I think I finally realised that I hate this place. It takes away all the fun you have, when you meet up with friends to play board games, and even makes it a competition to see how much ELO you can get. Not only that but the site has the strictest 1984 moderation policy, where I am not allowed to say I dont like someone. I have no option to turn off chat and so I cant avoid getting "gg"-ed when I lose.
My whole experience with BGA has been nothing but frustration. More are the times, when I left the site angry than happy. So I just want to cut it off from my life, but I cant because its so easy to access. Its genuine gambling addiction. Every time I came here I was like "alright lets kicks some
ace" and evertime I lose to "luck". Well, I'm done with it. I want to move on with my life. And I dont want to delete my account, because in the future I might play with some friends and I still have some premuim points left from translating. But I dont want to play on my own here again. So in order to make it easier for myself a simple 30 day ban or something is enough. I woudnt come back with a new account, because it wouldnt have premium and all the games I play here are premium. I dont wanna bother trying to snatch somebody elses room with their stupid settings.
Its kinda hilarious how in years prior, I was "fighting" against such moderations for being unfair and now I want to unfairly get moderated. I know no mod is compassionate enough to understand my situation and just ban me, but that leaves me just one option.
